The Doubt Monster

For context of the story I'm about to launch into, please read the post before this one: "Zoe's Spiritual Deconstruction - Inspired By Ear Biscuits". I will often be referencing to Rhett and Link's own spiritual stories recently told on their podcast. Also, yes that is me in the above photo. I know - I was hideous. Okay. I was raised within the Christian Reformed Church. My dad was a pastor for most of my life. His dad and brothers were pastors (still are). Both sides of my family considered themselves staunch Christians (still do). That's the reality that I was born into. For me, being a Christian meant that you believed in the Trinity - God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. It meant that you believed Jesus was the Son of God, sent to Earth through the Virgin Mary to die for our sins and rise again from the dead. Because of him we were what Christians call "saved", meaning that our sins were eternally forgiven and we could have a personal relati...

I've been watching Rhett and Link's content on YouTube since at least 2013. I wish I could remember exactly when I first discovered an episode of their daily YouTube show, "Good Mythical Morning" because it has since become a major part of my life. Their podcast, "Ear Biscuits", also became part of my weekly routine. All of their content has inspired me on a daily basis to be creative and curious. "Good Mythical Morning" and the "Rhett and Link" channel became a way to escape the reality of my depression and/or anxiety; to delight in the absurd. "Ear Biscuits" became a way to get out of my own head and focus on my priorities. When mental health is something you struggle with, laughter can be the greatest gift. There was a period in Rhett and Link's lives that they had never discussed publicly. In case you don't know, they met on the first day of first grade and have been best friends ever since, now running their...