A Transformative Decade
I've been struggling for weeks now to find the right words to send 2019, and the decade, off with. It's officially 2020 and I still don't have the "right" words, whatever those are. So I figured I'd start writing and see what comes out. Meet 14-and-a-half-year-old me. A whole decade ago, just starting her journey with depression without knowing it. It kills me that when I see pictures of myself from this time, all I can think about is how I want to be that skinny again. Look at those stick arms and non-existent boobs! The irony is that the girl in the picture didn't think she was thin at all. Ten years later and there's still so much work to be done regarding those thoughts. If I look past the physical, I know in my heart that I don't want to be that 14-15 year old again. She was about to start a decade long battle with mental illness. She was about to confront the anxiety disorder that had plagued her all her life. She was going to face mul...